This Day, Last Year.
2 more milestones to overcome and I think I'm done.

Happy Valentine's Day Y'all.

Chasing Redemption.

I honestly can't say I didn't see it coming. I don't blame anyone either; if any, I had a part to play.
All I can say is that it's bad timing in all honesty. "Guard your heart," the mind says. But I let it loose and foolishly thought that I had finally found that little bit of happiness I deserved.
But no, I guess I was never made for happier things. I guess I took months to slowly crawl out of my hole onto the road of recovery, but went back to square one in just a matter of days.

My mind is still in a mess. Have been indeed riding some hellava emotional roller coaster ride these past few months.
Sometimes, I lay in bed with my eyes closed, praying hard that I'll wake up to something new, something better and to a merrier me. But mostly what I get, is that same bitterness and self-reminder of my inadequacy everything I jolt awake in the mornings.

I'm tired of crying. Tired of waiting for everything to get better.
If anything, I'm sorry for not trying. It has been a tough ride, but I don't ever think I will get over this mistake of mine.

So much regrets this 2015.
After all that has happened these past few months, I guess I crave the comfort and content knowing that I will be in a better place someday. To sleep with a calm mind and peaceful heart; that's all I ask of to cross over to the new year.

2015 - you cannot get any worse than this.

All I Want For Christmas.

Most honest conversation of the evening. And I'm thankful for that.

Sometimes, I choose to delude myself that time heals. But eventually, what time has told me is not to ask for more; for someday, our ocean will find its way back to the shore. Somehow, all the broken hearts in the world still beat?

Merry Christmas Y'all.

How many heartaches does it take to break a soul apart.

"Hello from the other side, I must have called you a thousand times."

Chasing Redemption

"時間不是讓人忘了痛，而是讓人習慣了痛."

还需要多久,多长. 多伤.

Goodbye 2014

Some things never change, do they?

Comfortably seated at a cafe on the 2nd last day of the year, once again, attempting to pen down a list of resolutions for the new year ahead. Hopefully, I'll achieve some of them this time?

1. Complete Project X
2. Pick up a new skill
3. Read more
4. Learn how to write an app
5. Get toned! (slowly but steadily ok...)
6. Become an Excel Wizard (hahahaha)
7. Write my own songs
8. Travel far
9. Get back to photography

Enough for now - should be pretty attainable I hope? Right, hopefully the new year brings exciting times ahead.

What a random post anyway hahaha. Happy Holidays all!

Midnight cries. No one to hear / see me but my new fluffy pillows and quilt to hide under when the eyes get teary.

Hearing the affirmation just makes it worse.

Fuck how bad this hurts.

Almost is Never Enough.

Sometimes, I wish I had that tenacity and courage to fight for what I truly want. Or what I think I truly want.

In more ways than one.