May I someday be brave enough to finally take that leap - I need to know that I will not be making a mistake once again. Please please please give me a sign.

Even if I'm not gonna like how it all turns out, I'm gonna make the best out of life.

People were created to be loved,
Things were created to be used.
The world is in chaos because
Things are being loved and People are being used.
(Via tumblr)

So true, so true.
Anyway, yay finally got the blogger app for my iPhone. Makes blogging so much more convenient and on-the-go, considering that most of my thoughts are always jumbled up and I have sporadic inspirations every now and then. Maybe that explains why my twitter is (considerably) more interesting than my blog, hmm.

And so anyway am so excited that I'll be heading to London/Paris this coming december!!! Super short trip though, not that I'm complaining. Was meant to be a joke when I brought it up to mom, (after considering that our BKK would be a no-go due to the flooding) but never thought that it would materialize so soon!!! Let's just hope my excitement isn't premature. Things always seem to screw up last minute i dont know why - its like the recurring theme of the Game of Life. Anyway, I have always wanted to go to two places my whole life - Paris/New York and now am finally gonna head to Europe yayyyyyyy. Topshop paradise ! Heheh. And I'm the only one in the family who hasn't been to Europe and I almost freaked out when my sister didn't wanna go to the Eiffel tower initially (cause my whole family's seen it already). How can you go to Paris without seeing the Eiffel?!? Oh well, am gonna spam photos while I'm there! New lens will come in handy!!

Alright off to study now. The last two nights of overnight mugging wth Gladine is starting to take a toll on my health and skin, despite its effectiveness. And I start my papers the earliest and end the latest; what a slow and agonizing November. Sigh.

I AM GOING TO LONDON/PARIS THIS DECEMBER !!!!!!!!!!! :)))))

(Via Tumblr)

"Even if it ain't all it seems, I've got a pocket full of dreams."

(Via Tumblr)

I am trying to look past Life's negativities and to embrace the many things that I have been blessed with so far.
But all I see now is just a solid brick wall, indestructable and tall-towering over me. It's like everything has come to a standstill and as much as I want to proceed, I simply can't.

And you know the joke's on you when you've fought so hard for and for so long to be where you are today, but in just a split second, you realise that it may not be what you want after all. Every little thing around me just constantly reminds me of my downfalls and mistakes, so much so that I don't know what I want anymore.

Help me comprehend the world, will you?

I think I've established my new number 1 pet peeve as of today: HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE DON'T REPLY ME.

I don't care how long you take, as long as you give me a reply okay. Major hate sitting there waiting for you to take your own sweet time to give me an answer, and in the end I don't get anything from you. Super tired of people assuming that I can be pushed around. Angst much!!!!! Trying to cool down before I leave home for dinner. Hope the awesome food makes up for all of this.

I am how annoyed. Damnit.

Her first performance/audition at X-Factor (I can't seem to embed it, so click to view!): CLICK HERE

Look at how much Cher Lloyd has changed!!! She's so much prettier now. LOVE HER NEW HAIRSTYLE :D

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Something funny that happened today, Sis stormed into my room and wanted to play some pieces on my keyboard (cause she needs to perform at her friend's wedding). So she scanned through my songbook and all the songs I have are stuffs like:

Someone Like You
Broken Strings
9 Crimes
Unfaithful
Almost Lover
Look What You've Done
Try
Love the Way You Lie

HAHAHAHA. So NOT appropriate for a wedding dinner. Hmmm but I really have no idea why my entire songbook is like that... Hahaha think I'm just naturally more inclined towards slow ballads. Hm.

Oh well, and the long weekend is here!! The calm before the storm, the much needed respite before the intensive crazy mugging (nah, I don't mug that hard really) - but I'm so bored!! Everyone's like super busy and I refuse to start mugging so early cause I know I'll just crash and burn a short while after. At least my keyboard is a timely distraction... Hm how about supper friends???:D:D

Hahaha ok I'm on like some unstoppable high now, think it's the coffee at work. I'm bored, kay off to do whatever I was doing. Bye!

I FINALLY GOT MY NEW KEYBOARD!

So dope! I just hope it doesn't irritate the heck out of my neighbours, since my room walls are kinda thin and the new neighbours don't seem very friendly... So anyway, yeah come visit me at my humble abode and I'll perform a piece for you muahaha. Hahahaha of course I kid. But ya been printing out loads of music sheets and testing them out. The touch sense is awesome!!! Little bit of pressure and it seems like my playing is super emotional. hahaha.

Anyway, been evidently losing weight recently as told by friends and family (in the sense that I look thinner all of a sudden) but the weight on the weighing machine keeps increasing. The heck? Mom thinks it's weight from muscles gained, but the only thing I do nowadays is to eat and sleep!! Well maybe the only form of exercise is walking briskly to rush to my next class...? If that counts. Hahaha I will never understand my body anatomy... Oh wait, maybe its due to the epic tummyache episode the other day. Major drama-mama, can qualify under one of my worst tummyaches ever... How embarassing :((

Alright, random rant for the day. Overdue work awaits!