Georgetown 2014

Finally got about to posting up the photos for Georgetown - all I can say is that it was the best 55 hours spent in the UNESCO World Heritage region. Randomly decided to take a solo exploratory tour around Georgetown some time back in Feb, mainly to visit the Camera Museum (which the sis bf invested in) and to also finally witness the street murals done up by Ernest Zacharevic for myself before it all fades away with time. So much love for the whole experience.

Thank you for being such a gem, Georgetown. I'll definitely be back someday.

Phantoms

Don't let the ones that want to steal your dreams,
They'll steal your dreams away,
Just laugh and let it go.

Haven't blogged in ages, but thought I'd post a short one here - simply because I can't think of any other alternate channel to vent this pent-up frustration.

These few weeks have gone by in a blur. I cannot remember when was the last time I ever felt so jaded. Dejected, jaded, panicky, angry, angst, upset, then jaded all over again. Life should not be this way, especially not at this stage of my life. Wish I can fast-forward to the end of May, when all my troubles can be temporarily eased then. But no, time is not kind, and mayhem floods this troubled mind. So till then, the only solution is to suck it in and hang on - cos' “Grit is a tenacious strength to hold tight, dig in and push back when it matters the most.” May this week be a better and more enlightening week.

When You’re The Girl Who Never Falls In Love

(Extracted from Thoughtcatalog, written by Charlotte Green.)

When you’re the one who has crushes, who thinks it might work, who stretches out an imaginary life with someone for years on end, but who never really makes it happen, you know it. You know that there is something wrong with you, that you can’t just have a normal relationship where two people fall into place and everything is happy ever after. Even when someone does fall for you in return, you immediately pull away, so sure that anyone who loves you couldn’t be someone you’d want to be with.

Maybe it’s because you never fell in love with yourself, never saw yourself the way others can, never made a real list of all your best qualities and forced yourself to read it. Maybe you thought love was just never in the cards because there are so many better things to do in life — travel, career, friends, new restaurants to try — and you kept putting it off again and again. And now, here you are, older than you thought you would be when you were in your “forever” relationship, and totally alone.

You don’t know how to fall in love. You don’t know what happens after the first few good dates, where it can actually go, except one of two places: Either you desire the person deeply because they withhold everything real for you, or you lose all respect for them because they want to be with you for real. There is never a third option, never a healthy one, never something that you can hold onto. You think you’ve been in love, maybe, but you’ve never really fallen. You’ve never held someone as the both of you let go completely.

You ask yourself all the time if you’re missing out, if your friends know that you’re making it up as you go when you’re all talking about the weddings and children and lives with someone that you want. You don’t know if you want it, because you don’t know if it’s possible. You don’t know if anything is particularly wrong with you, you just know that there is a storyline of love that everyone else gets to follow except for you. There is a secret club out there for people who have figured out how to fall in love, and you don’t know the password.

So you keep trying. You sign up for online dating and you let your friends set you up and you hope that one of these days, everything will change and you will get to live the kind of love that you have always imagined will happen in your “adult” life. You keep hoping that you won’t finish your life as the girl who couldn’t find love, as the girl who couldn’t let herself truly fall, the girl who only loved the people she knew would never love her back. Because being alone is okay today, when there is so much else to do, but one day you know you will be tired — and all you’ll want to do is hold someone.

To Remember.

In a world where so much is right,
But so much is wrong.

Of Well-Worn Strings and Better Things.

A bunch of my faves from the mini adventure we had that day. Haven't had such a carefree day in a while :)

“Sometimes I feel like if you just watch things, just sit still and let the world exist in front of you - sometimes I swear that just for a second time freezes and the world pauses in its tilt. Just for a second. And if you somehow found a way to live in that second, then you would live forever.”

People help the People.

God knows what is hiding in this world of little consequence
Behind the tears, inside the lies,
A thousand slowly dying sunsets.

HELLO 2014!

Minus the late/sleepy ones - smaller attendance count this year, but still same old, same old. :)

Until We Die, Goodbye 2013.

We will sing until we die,
We'll never waste these tears on fears and cries
And now the world is ours to take
And every single move is ours to make

4.26pm: As I sit alone in this cafe on the second last day of 2013, I'm trying to recall all the various events that have transpired over the year. It has been a while since I last blogged. People came and went, gained some form of realization over my priorities and needs, and most importantly, I've learnt to let go. Letting go of grudges, regrets, people and memories.

Every single moment this year has been nothing short of transformational. Graduated with honors, got a job, and met some really awesome buddies. Travelled, ventured into the unfamiliar, and learnt some of the biggest life lessons I'll ever have this eternity.

The talk I had with you this Christmas really gave me a huge wake-up call. Life is too short to worry about the trivials. At the very end, nothing else matters if you don't hold true to what you believe. Thank you friend, for educating me on something I've not learnt to grasp for the longest time. And I also sincerely hope you get well soon.

"In order to let that pain go, you must let everything go. Perhaps in the distant future, you will be able to pick and choose the memories you want to keep, but for a very long time, one memory will always bleed into another."

May 2014 be an even better year ahead.