Shelter

They say that good things come to those who wait. But how long more am I supposed to wait for?

Jaded

February is gonna be a month of departures. Losing a couple of my close pals / bestest friends to faraway lands for a few months. Gonna miss them badly, but I guess the stress from school will keep my mind pretty occupied for the next few months.

Have been making quite a bit of new friends this semester but losing touch with a couple of close older friends really quickly. I simply cannot understand what some people are thinking. Good friends are not supposed to treat each other like that. Maybe I'm the only one who thinks that way? Mom keeps telling me to curb my anger and to focus on more positive thoughts. But sometimes, I think there will be a point in time someday when I've got to let go and stop trying. Nothing lasts forever; things are always bound to change, and when it does, you've just got to either keep up with it well, or to let go and forget.

Bad start to the week despite the pretty awesome spontaneous weekend. Life, you kid me much.

I've given up trying to understand your little tricks. Humans are truly a complex bunch.

CNY was pretty much the same this year. Spent my chu-yi with the paternal family and chu-er watching vampire diaries and mahjong as per usual. Can't wait for 11 Feb - that shall be my sequel to the lack of CNY festivities this year and perhaps something to look forward to as I attempt to trudge through these few horrible weeks.

Today was a mad start back to school. Basically ended all my work only at 12 midnight and here I am blogging after a chat with the sister. In the midst of recovering from a flu but everyone simply demands so much from me. I just wish that people would be more appreciative of what I'm trying to do, instead of complaining.

After all the recent events, I feel like I've truly lost faith and belief in alot of things. It's like waking up one day to find out that all you used to believe in were lies. Some issues are irreparable by nature; no matter how hard you try to fix it, it just simply won't do. I've long given up trying to repair these "holes" because it's just too taxing to do so after a while. Simply put, I don't want to lead my life everyday like it's a chore. It's just plain wrong.

Alright, yet another emo pointless post. Could be the flu meds talking. Whatever the case, goodnight everyone. :)

One day, my fickleminded-ness is gonna get the best of me. Spent the weekend with two of my bestest groups of friends but didn't manage to enjoy my time with them thoroughly because of certain issues that I was deeply fixated on. Now that everything's more or less resolved, I'm just really sorry that I didn't manage to be as hyped up as I normally would have. :/

But nevertheless, USS was super awesome!!! Amazing how it was such an impromptu decision, like we decided on going to USS only 2 days earlier?! Battlestar was 3 times conquered - 2 on Cylon and 1 on Human. The cylon experience was how cool! With the dry ice and all. Plus the Mummy ride. My 2 favourite rides :D Was a pity that we didn't have much time in USS to fully enjoy every single attraction though :( I am soo gonna head back sometime :D

And then, Justus' 21st! The BIG TWO-ONE is finally here. Not looking forward to my turn; age is gradually becoming a rather sensitive topic at this point in life. At least for me. :/ But anyway, glad that the surprise turned out well. Somehow, birthday surprises always fail as the year progresses. Time to get cracking on those creative juices this year !

Alright, HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR EVERYONE :>
Eat less goodies alright, I read that a serving of Bakwa is equivalent to 200+ calories?! Like whutttt.

Where is the learning?

The year has barely started and there's so much problems already... I seriously need to pull this together. Hate how a simple sentence like that could so easily break me. I'm really sorry for realizing my mistake 20 years too late. Regretting every one of my mistakes once again, even though my new year resolution was not to do so. Saw the look of disappointment on your face today and everything just snapped.
Somebody teach me how to move forward please?

WHO RUN THE WORLD? ...GIRLS!

Hahahaha damn I think I have a girl-crush on the beatboxer already... MAJORLY WICKEDLY AWESOME <3
The other groups are awesome too!! OMG I think I just found the most amazing singing competition ever HAHAHA :D

Had a long chat with the pals today and only just reached home. I love night talks like these, allows me to learn more new things and to gain a better perspective of my life. And for those of you who follow my moms blog (mama-jj.bs), you'll know that a close family friend of mine recently got the bestest gift in the world in the form of a miracle. That really set me thinking hard: why am I wasting my time worrying about the most useless things in the world when I should spend my time properly appreciating the goodness I have in my life? It's all about learning to let go and to be thankful for every single day that you wake up to loved ones and a caring and nurturing environment. Ultimately, it's a matter of choice.

Poison

Wow, this song practically drove me mad for some period of time... Passed by the bungybar on Christmas and heard the chorus briefly but loved the rendition by some local duo. Only caught a few words from the chorus and rushed off cause I was terribly late (as usual). Was trying to find what the song was thereafter but kept working with the wrong song lyrics. "POISON OAK IN MY MIND" HILARIOUS MUCH hahaha. Only chanced upon this song recently and then I realised it was the same song. Awesome!

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Anyway, I've come to the realisation that I need to start making decisions for myself. In that sense, I mean that I have been too reliant on some people and I've been mirroring my schedule against theirs way too much. It's saddening to know how I free up so much of my time for some people who cannot even give me a second in return. And I really regret it because I neglect so many people in the process. Why should I put someone as my priority when I'm not even theirs? I'm so tired of organising events after events and am getting gradually numb to the rejections that follow... What supposedly started off as a favour turned out to be an obligation that goes unappreciated. I told a friend recently that I'll eventually quit organising everything. Just because I have a limit and it's really about time I stopped compromising. Period.

Nobody Knows

Stir-Fry Udon / Bulgogi Beef

Both Mom and auntie like my stir-fry udon! And that's good :) Don't know why my Bulgogi Beef looks a little like innards but its still pretty okay... recipe still needs a little tweaking though. Hmm.

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Having the same badass headache since the party... What a joke, thought I was just having a horrible hangover after too much intensive shouting and fooling around the night before, and then i came home to a big surprise of 38.5 degrees on the thermometer. What a great way to usher in the new year. Whole family's down with the flu - epidemic on the wayyyyy. But that totally didn't deter me from going out yesterday hahaha. Awesome awesome Santouka yumyum! YK and I are gonna head to Dreams & Reality someday, saw that in Paris but didn't have the time to stop and look. Can't wait! And I so badly want to go see the Titanic Exhibition... Anyone interested?

HELLO 2012!

Last year's GIF was definitely much cuter... but at least we had cool specs and uber-rad head gear with much thanks to HW. And funny videos for keepsake too hahaha.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! :D